Flopping

I’m so wishy washy right now. I just can’t figure out what to do with myself. Last summer I had plans. Things to do. This summer I’m lost. I need to get a schedule going. Get things on the right track. I haven’t been sleeping great. Although, last night I did and I just kept sleeping until 8:20. For me that is like noon considering I usually hit the gym between 4 and 5. Maybe I’m still in recovery from school, who knows. Hours on end with pre-teens can definitely drain a person.

I know that PMS has something to do with my tiredness, too. Which if I count the days looks like I’ll be hitting TOM right when I go to my Cross Fit Cert. Yay. I so love that. There is nothing better than trying to workout hard and in the presence of others when you feel like your insides are falling out.

I alos hope that the number on the scale I saw was indicative of the monthly curse. I’ll just whisper it, so as not to scare you…128.

If that is too small to read,  then you don’t need to know. My fear is that I’m getting further from comp weight and WTH? The urge to make it happen is disappearing, too. I don;t look in the mirror and get grossed out, which is progress. I know I would be happy if I was at 120 all the time. But, the big question is, am I willing to do what it takes to stay there? I just can’t say.

So, we will hit the Library this morning and the beach tomorrow. I gotta get out of this house. On a more positive note, I have an ortho appointment and pray he will be telling me I’m getting my braces off in the next couple weeks. That is something to celebrate.

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5 Responses to “Flopping”

  1. Elizabeth says:

    Hopefully the orto has good news for you. I have had my braces off for three years now and I remember the day they took them off… GLORIOUS I tell ya! :)

  2. Elizabeth says:

    Hopefully the ortho has good news for you. I have had my braces off for three years now and I remember the day they took them off… GLORIOUS I tell ya! :)

  3. Sundie says:

    I was the same way for a couple of weeks once school was out. I think it is because we are so busy and just going all the time and then once school is out it is hard to relax right away. Just breath and think about what you want to accomplish and I know you and you will get it done. I swear about the time I am finally relaxing and enjoying myself it is time to go back. I think I have to be back on Aug 12! I am so not ready.

  4. Evelyne says:

    Hope you are able to figure it all out. I need a plan too or else I feel like I’m just standing still.
    I’m in PMS mode too. Weight gain, bloated, boobs hurt, moody, all that good stuff. HATE IT.
    Ooooh!!! I’ll keep my fingers crossed that the Ortho has some good news for you too!!! I cannot WAIT for the day that mine come off!! I still have at LEAST a year to go!

  5. Laurie says:

    So what’d the Ortho say?!?! being a former head-gear girl, I’m praying for you.

    I also hope you find something to motivate you and you get your groove back.

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