My Rock

It’s been a rough week to say the least. And my birthday is tomorrow. Usually the week leading up to my birthday is all about my birthday, but not this week. It surely hasn’t been about me.

I made a decision to change something and it sort of blew up. People weren’t happy and reacted poorly. This resulted in me being attacked and my intentions misconstrued. I’ve never had anyone seriously question my actions or take they WAY out of context and then portray them as evil or negative, but that happened this week. And it felt really crappy.

Last night as I was feeling picked on again, I was walking upstairs and I heard a little whisper in my spirit ‘how will you grow from this?”

My first thought…”ugh”. And then my inner whiny 8 year old came out. “Why do I have to grow and learn from this? I didn’t even do anything wrong? It’s their problem. Why can’t I retaliate and be evil and mean back?”

BAM! I stopped and began to ask God to change me. I’ve been doing a lot of that lately. And what do you know, it seems to help. I’m not sure how much changing I’m doing but, when I stop focusing on changing everyone else and realize maybemy heart and mnd needs some tweaking, my attitude changes and I can stop wondering and worrying about WHY things are going they way they are.

I got up this morning and read this verse “My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Psalm 62:7 NIV

Nowhere does it say I have to calculate and email and situate people to protect my honor. I know the truth and that’s what I must stand on and move on. And when in gets tough for me, I’ll hide in the refuge of my god.

And when it happens again, repeat. Practice makes perfect…? Maybe someday in another life.

Much love…IrishBlessing

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